MY SALVATION: HE TOUCHED ME
My plight continued, my fears grew stronger.
I became a slave to fear. Freedom became to me, a mere imagination, an impossible feat. I saw it in the lives of other believers, but twas never my reality. I was too far gone.
For some weird reason, i never stopped going to church. I was surrounded by Christian brothers and sisters. Many of them loved and respected me, so I had to keep up the appearances. I remained with them, knowing that the day i step out, it will be over for me, cos their freedom; their reality and; their experience, was what i hoped for.
This is it. I could take no more. I was on the verge of committing suicide. I couldn’t flow with the world, cos i feared the horrors of hell. I somehow knew it to be too real to me. I thought maybe, just maybe if I just aked forgiveness and died now, i would make it to heaven. Death to me, was inevitable.
I came out late that night, standing up high, looking down, imagining what my death would look like, how people will mourn. I was about to jump, but I couldn’t. Why? I don’t know.
The next day was church service. Twas like that service was for me. Pastor Iren spoke about salvation, the work of the Holy Spirit, and the hope that Christ has given us. He expounded and laid emphasis on the sacrifice, the perfect sacrifice capable of saving all, no matter how bad it appeared before the human eyes. I was looking at my bible. I was surprised, greatly shocked.
Eph 1:13 In whom ye also trusted, after that ye heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation: in whom also after that ye believed, ye were sealed with that holy Spirit of promise,
Eph 1:14 Which is the earnest of our inheritance until the redemption of the purchased possession, unto the praise of his glory.
Eph 2:1 And you hath he quickened, who were dead in trespasses and sins;
Eph 2:2 Wherein in time past ye walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that now worketh in the children of disobedience:
Eph 2:3 Among whom also we all had our conversation in times past in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind; and were by nature the children of wrath, even as others.
Eph 2:4 But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us,
Eph 2:5 Even when we were dead in sins, hath quickened us together with Christ, (by grace ye are saved;)
Eph 2:6 And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus:
Eph 2:7 That in the ages to come he might shew the exceeding riches of his grace in his kindness toward us through Christ Jesus.
Woah!!! I exclaimed. I said to myself ‘self, did you just see that’? (at this point, everything in the bible appeared strange, like i had never read it) and my self replied ‘ehn en, I saw it oo, i just nefa hespered it’.
I was filled with life immediately. ‘There was hope for me’ I thought. I am accepted in the beloved, I am saved by grace, not my walks.
There and then, I wept. ‘How did I stop believing what i have preached for years’ I thought. ‘Where did I miss it?’ A voice on the inside of me spoke to me, saying ‘you stopped feeding your spirit man, you fed your flesh. You stopped walking in the Spirit, and began to fulfil the lust of the flesh. Even after you realised, instead of running towards God, you ran away in guilt and condemnation. Hence, fear and sin became you master.
I wept again, and repented of my sins, and I returned to the Lord.
After these events, i spoke to a few friends, sharing my testimony. They were joyful, and told me how that the Lord had told them to pray for me, and they had been praying for me all this while. I was amazed, and cried to the Lord again, thanking Him for His love.
I’m no longer a slave to fear, I’m no longer a slave to sin, I’m a child of God.
Till this day, i cease not to give praise to God.
“For He who has begun a good work in me, He shall perform it till the day of Jesus Christ.” Philippians 1:6
Jude 1:24 “Now unto him that is able to keep you from falling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy.
This is my salvation story. This is my testimony. I’m sharing this to testify of the goodness of God, and how that no matter how far deep you think you might have gone in sin and fear, God is not judging and condemning you. No, He wants you to run to Him.
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Remember, don’t stop believing. DO NOT EVER STOP BELIEVING.